How does a person miss the beginning of an entire season, especially fall? It’s like I woke up one day and was like, “Holy crap! It’s autumn!” I would love to say I have some wonderful excuse, some extremely eventful life change that caused me to space out on the passage of time but that’s just not true. I think I just became disconnected.
The idea of being this disconnected worries me a great deal. Much of my spiritual practice and beliefs come from a connection to the planet and her cycles. Staying in sync with Mother Nature is what keeps me balanced and healthy in a world that is anything but. Maybe that’s the problem. I have not been feeling very balanced or healthy lately. My eating habits have been teetering back and forth between healthful vegan bliss and all out junk food nausea. My sleeping patterns are shot to hell. I’m on and off at the gym. This has been going on for a few months and I have been struggling to put my finger on the reason. It would make sense that if I am so out of sync with nature’s balanced rhythm that I could miss the continual drop in temperature, the changing colors, and the blanket of leaves that keep settling on my car that eventually my own rhythms would suffer too.
In place of my usual practices of reading, walking, hiking, and spending time in nature, I have been focused on work. Work, work, work. When I come home from work I feel tired and frustrated and just want to decompress. I have spent a lot of time streaming tv shows on Netflix. I have become less active in general and have not spent much time doing the spiritual things that normally make me feel so fulfilled. So now the question becomes, how do I become reconnected? How do I re-establish that balanced connection with the All Mother? I miss her. I suppose I can start by spending more time in nature. It’s a good thing I have a hike planned for this Monday. Maybe it will be the natural shot in the arm that I need to right my world.